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So I lied...

No one likes a quitter...especially this guy. With that being said I'm going to stay on board the 22goingon7 train until it crashes. Plus, I've got a few encouraging words from you readers so I feel like I owe it to you :)

So much has been going on in my life lately, and I feel like I just can't keep up. I've been in a coma like state of depression for about the past month or so and I just can't seem to figure out why, or what to do to break the mold.

I've got plenty to be happy about:

• A beautiful family that loves me
• A great job
• Good health (for a change)

All that aside I just don't feel right. Everything is changing and the world I once knew is no more. Innocence is gone. Money is tight and the pressure of providing for a family is one like I've never felt. Between rent, student loans, car payments and insurance, food, GAS, daycare, diapers, formula, and about 20 other expenses each month, I feel like I'm struggling to keep up, let alone getting ahead.

So in an attempt to get ahead I'm going to be taking some Adobe certification tests, so I can become an ACE (Adobe Certified Expert). I'm hoping this will give me a little more firepower come time for my one year review. I've also started to launch PacificCityGraphics.com 2.0. I convinced my boss that we need to have online ordering to stay in the game. This is another point I'm going to bring up during my review. I'm constantly improving and evolving, and thus I feel I should be rightfully compensated for it.

Thanks for stopping by...I'll see you tomorrow.

Comments

Gidget said…
GEEZ Chase -

I just wrote this LONG LONG heartfelt comment to you, but by the time I created a google account to allow me to publish it, the page had expired! it was so good too! ha - will try to recreate it as best I can....

rita
Gidget said…
Ok as best I can remember, this is what I said:

WOW Chase - thank you for sharing your blog with me, I feel honored.

Can you stand to read what will sound like advice from an old(er) woman?

I don't like reading that you feel depressed, maybe a more accurate description would be 'stressed'? Parenthood of a toddler AND baby is a crazy making time of life, it is easy to lose sight of that.

I see you everyday, and am so impressed with what I see. I think back to myself/my boyfriend at your age, and you are MILES ahead of where we were maturity/wisdom-wise. You should be proud of what you have accomplished already.
Some people sleepwalk through their lives with no awareness of all they have, and I see you raising Bella and Jordan with joy and gratitude. They are beautiful, their pictures make me cry, seriously. THEY ARE BLESSED TO HAVE YOU AS A FATHER - NEVER FORGET THAT. (I am sure they are equally blessed with Summer as a mom, I just don't know her)

The bosses at PCG are good people, and good judges of character. (for the most part)They are well aware of your value, SM has told me more than once how impressed he is with you. Keep all your capabilities/worth in mind and you will be able to express your concerns well.

I could go on ad nauseum, but it would probably convince you I am a stalker and frighten you. I am looking forward to reading ALL of your entries, got through quite a few. Oh and I can see why Gal #1 does not have this blog address.

-R.
Anonymous said…
Rita does have encouraging words. Stress and depression can mean different things. In stress, you show your emotions and people can see it. In deprssion other people can see you as the happiest person, but we don't always show it, more like an internal feeling. Right now I kind of have both sysmptoms and its not fun. Hang tight Chase, hope things go better.

Chad
Benjamin said…
Sweet! Keep at it!!!

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