With around 7 weeks until the baby is due I am starting to feel the heat. I also feel like I don't have anyone to really talk to.
Maybe that is because I don't like it when people tell me they know how I feel. Because they don't. You may know how you felt when you were in a similar situation...But you don't know how I feel. Saying you do isn't going to make things any better. By the way...This isn't a poke at anyone particular, in fact I get this response no matter who I try to talk to. Thus is also the reason I rarely talk about my situation to anyone.
Besides hoping that our child is healthy, which thus far the doctors tell us ours is, I am really worried about providing a good life for my family. I am going crazy at the job I am at now (recently I have attributed this feeling to the fact I don't get to talk to anyone all day, except myself) but I can't just take a chance and quit without knowing I can get another job. Then again I can't make what I make now and be able to live with 2 kids. Aargh.
Furthermore, I feel like I ask so much of my parents. Whether it be them taking Jordan for a few hours or me borrowing some money it seems like I am constantly asking of something from them. They don't ask a thing from me. I thought moving back to South Sioux would be great, and it has been, but it might be great at my parents expense ya know? I don't want to be that guy.
However there is some sunshine creeping through the clouds...I have an interview for a Public Relations Specialist at the community blood bank here in Sioux City. If hired I would do a lot of writing for things like ads, radio/tv spots, etc., and handle the graphic design work...Which I would love to do! Also I would be handling the web, working to generate awareness and numbers for the blood drives. I'll be sure to keep you posted.
And a special thanks to my neighbor,Benjamin, for the song on my page...For everything.
Maybe that is because I don't like it when people tell me they know how I feel. Because they don't. You may know how you felt when you were in a similar situation...But you don't know how I feel. Saying you do isn't going to make things any better. By the way...This isn't a poke at anyone particular, in fact I get this response no matter who I try to talk to. Thus is also the reason I rarely talk about my situation to anyone.
Besides hoping that our child is healthy, which thus far the doctors tell us ours is, I am really worried about providing a good life for my family. I am going crazy at the job I am at now (recently I have attributed this feeling to the fact I don't get to talk to anyone all day, except myself) but I can't just take a chance and quit without knowing I can get another job. Then again I can't make what I make now and be able to live with 2 kids. Aargh.
Furthermore, I feel like I ask so much of my parents. Whether it be them taking Jordan for a few hours or me borrowing some money it seems like I am constantly asking of something from them. They don't ask a thing from me. I thought moving back to South Sioux would be great, and it has been, but it might be great at my parents expense ya know? I don't want to be that guy.
However there is some sunshine creeping through the clouds...I have an interview for a Public Relations Specialist at the community blood bank here in Sioux City. If hired I would do a lot of writing for things like ads, radio/tv spots, etc., and handle the graphic design work...Which I would love to do! Also I would be handling the web, working to generate awareness and numbers for the blood drives. I'll be sure to keep you posted.
And a special thanks to my neighbor,Benjamin, for the song on my page...For everything.
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